Today I started Group Therapy for the first time. Having had therapy including 1-1 counselling and CBT, it’s actually been very stressful and very isolating to say the least. Group therapy is not something I wanted to do before, but there is something about being in a group that is really supportive. You can have so much support around you when suffering from mental health, but when you are inside your own head 24/7 it is tough, and after attending the first session I am pleased to say I am glad I went. This is a 21 week course and I thought it would be good to blog in case other people are considering this type of therapy.
The first thing we did in the group, and what we will do each week, is go round and rate our mood from 0 to 10, some people put themselves at a 7, some 5, two of us were probably the lowest at about a 3, we then said what we would like to get out of the course. My answer was to not be a burden on other people, to take that pressure off, and to find support with people going through similar things.
The first part of this course will be on ‘compassion focused therapy’, and how we need to learn to empathise with ourselves like we do with other people. The therapist started off by saying, which of you would be willing to sit here and call me worthless, selfish and uncaring, thankfully none of us could. She then asked then why is it okay to berate ourselves in this way, and punish ourselves for whatever trauma each person has gone through.
We then talked about the ‘threat system’ the fight, flight or freeze response. Basically anyone who has suffered any type of trauma, may have a heightened threat response. In the threat response you cannot think because it switches off, which is what keeps us safe. When you become anxious, your world becomes much smaller, because you start avoiding things. You get into a state of constant heightened arousal, looking around and sweating The human brain is so complicated it is amazing any of us function at all.
We also for 30 seconds clenched our fists as hard as we could, and we had to notice what was happening. We then shook our hands out. Some people felt their whole body tense up, or made them feel angry. Our muscles cannot be tense and relaxed at the same time. When you are tense, you will clench your fists or feel your jaw go. This then puts you into fight, flight or freeze.
Another system we have is a drive system. When our drive system is in overdrive we are exhausted and you break. The drive system gets you up in the morning, washed and dressed. Some people have high drives and some low drives. A symptom of depression is our drive system shrinks, a system of anxiety is it increases.
We also have a soothing system, which we have in each other, but not to ourselves. The compassion element of this type of therapy includes increasing your soothing system to reduce or inflate the drive and threat system (balance it out).
The aim of compassion focused therapy is to process things that have happened. Trauma memories are categorised in a very different way from ordinary memories, we process our pasts right the way back (inner child) and be kinder to ourselves. When we are kind to others, we get something back ourselves. Oxytocin is released when you give someone a cuddle, it is released when you are kind to someone, it makes you feel good. It is released when stroking a pet or any skin to skin contact. It makes you feel happy, loved and compassionate. Most people offer compassion to others as a transaction. It makes you feel good and it makes them feel better.
When you’ve spent your whole life being mean and harsh on yourself, being compassionate doesn’t come easily. It’s a mindset shift to start being kind to yourself when your immediate response is to criticise or beat yourself up. We can all benefit from cutting ourselves a bit of slack.
Some good quotes to help start the journey about self compassion.
“Self-compassion is simply giving the same kindness to ourselves that we would give to others” – Christopher Germer
“This is a moment of suffering. Suffering is part of life. May I be kind to myself in this moment. May I give myself the compassion I need”. Kristin Neff
Speak to yourself with self compassion on the inside and you will radiate peace on the outside”. Amy Leigh Mercree
“Feeling compassion for ourselves in no way releases us from responsibility for our actions. Rather, it releases us from the self-hatred that prevents us from responding our life with clarity and balance”. – Tara Brach
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