If you’re busy suppressing emotions what effect will it have?! This is something I have done my whole life, but I am trying to connect with myself more and understand why I may be feeling the way I am.
I also shared how I am struggling with procrastination badly at the moment, something which has never effected me so much before. I was told to try and attempt little things each day, rather than everything at once.
I also spoke about how I am trying 10 minutes of meditation each day, but I do struggle to focus and find myself drifting in my thoughts a lot. The therapist said I can let the thoughts come, but also let them go again, and bring myself back to focus, and the idea is not trying to block and suppress them.
We are also starting to move into the inner child work. Often when we are little, medium size or older, we have another version of ourselves, a younger self that might have experienced some things that weren’t nice, or maybe heard things that weren’t nice, and from time to time the emotions we experienced at the time we revisit now as we get older. If someone wasn’t nice to you when you were little, or not so little, it doesn’t matter what age you are, these emotions keep popping up, the inner child keeps popping up and throwing emotions around, and they keep flying here there and everywhere.
Inner child work can take a while, and can be one of the most important pieces of therapeutic work a person does. In order to accept who we were, what we are, and what happened, we somehow need to comfort our younger self, showing compassion and kindness.
To begin this work, we have been asked to write a letter to our younger selves full of compassion, remembering we didn’t make mistakes, as we only knew what we knew. We reacted the way we reacted because of what we knew at the time. We can look back as adults thinking ‘I should have done this, or should have done that’, but we couldn’t, because we only know what we know now.
Until we give compassion to our inner self, emotionally we will be stuck, and stay on the same roller-coaster.